As said, everything looked so god in January and every
single piece in the puzzle seemed to be falling into its correct
place, then February happened. First, my favourite aunt passed away,
then a month or so later COVID-19 came knocking with 100+ days of
quarantine and lockdown. Then in the middle of the lockdown, I get
the news that a friend of mine had passed away and in at the same
time, my sons best friend gets rushed to the children hospital in
Lima with the Kawasaki disease. A few months later we move to a new
place (a good thing) and before I know it ends up with an infection
in my shoulder and elbow (September). This was something that set me
back in a big way.
While this was going on my mom told me that
another aunt of mine had gotten the news that she has only 1 month to
a year left on this planet. Not like this in itself wasn't a piece of
massive news since she has been sick for a while now, but it doesn't
end there. When the infection in my elbow and shoulder healed I got
stuck with something new. An infection on the left side of my jaw and
this is something that still is going on, I am going into Lima next
week to have a specialist to have a look at it and hopefully he will
be able to fix my jaw situation. It's not like its painful or
anything, just something that is prohibiting me from doing things I
need to do. That's also why I haven't updated my blog this
month.
The truth is that I have so far this month had more
than enough just trying to focus on work and work-related activities.
Not like I haven't tried, but have been forced to give up every
single time. The thing is that I have a ton of ideas for videos for
my YouTube channel and for posts for my blog, just that the moment
isn't really there. Until now, because now I am just airing a ton of
frustration. Oh yes, I forgot that we got COVID-19 back in March,
can't forget that? Almost forgot as well that I lost my amazing
Ginger back in early March. Dam this year has thrown some serious
amount of dirt my way, this year has been the perfect storm of shit
throwing. Anyone else that has had it like this throughout
2020?
Then again, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and
that is how I have been trying my most darn to think throughout this
year. Not always the easiest thing to do when things like this hit
you in the face. All I really want right now is for this year to end
so we can get started on a new one. A new one that hopefully won't
continue with the same negativity as this one has been serving me
over and over again. Now I am worried about what comes next, can it
really become any worse than this? Hope not, I really hope not
because 2020 has been horrible so far. At the same time, I am trying
really hard to enjoy the good things. Like my family, our new place
and that my blog are doing better than ever.
Anyway, no matter
what life throws at me I will keep on fighting and will end up on
top, as usual, just frustrating when stuff like this happens to be
honest. So I will continue as I usually do, work hard and stay
focused on the good side of life while trying my best to ignore the
bad things that are happening around me. Ignoring them isn't the same
as not dealing with them, just not letting them get to me. This has
always worked for me in the past, but then again I have never ever
been through a shit storm like this before. The best part I can think
of right now is that I am not in any real pain, that's the weird part
because with the massive infection that I have been and still dealing
with usually comes with mind-numbing pain, but that isn't the case
this time.
I want a refund because this year really stinks!
Please,
can someone tell me that everything that has happened so far this
year has been a bad dream or a nightmare and that I am still sleeping
off my New year's celebration drunkenness? Because this is simple, I
can't actually remember one single year that even comes close to
matching how much dirt this year has thrown at me. Yes, I am going to
rant and complain a bit, simply because I feel as I deserve to let
out some steam. Its as simple as this, everything that could have a
potential to go sideways has gone sideways and we are only in October
and must say, I am worried about the months and weeks ahead of us. It
started so well back in January and I had so many plans for this
year.
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